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Post by Fai Flowright on Nov 26, 2011 21:22:09 GMT -4
Despite seeing Kurogane looking awkward and figiting, Fai didn't let go of his arm, still afraid that the Hufflepuff would make a run for it rather than talk. He had abandonment issues, he couldn't help it. Vaguely, even though his mind was still recovering from the very nice surprise, he registered how cute Kurogane looked when he blushed....but for once, he managed not to tease.
In fact, Fai even managed not to reply to Kurogane's question with any silly answers (like 'I think we should do that again!'). Instead he thought about it...only a couple of minutes ago he'd resigned himself to giving up...but after that kiss, he found he really didn't like that idea. No matter how scary it was to let himself be vulnerable, he was very tired of being lonely and isolated. It had hit him in the month that they'd avoided eachother just how big a part of his life the Hufflepuff had become, and now faced with the opportunity he found himself secretly wanting to open up - even just a little- to Kurogane. He wanted someone who he cared about to care back.
It was a big step....rather like standing on the edge of a cliff, looking down and getting that mad urge to jump. He teetered on the edge....the safe answer...or the plunge? "Well...we could put it down to a near death experiance making us do crazy things, and just continue being friends..." No...he wouldn't forgive himself if he didn't take the leap "Or," he continued hesitantly. "I could tell you that I really missed you....and it made me realise..." The words got stuck in his throat, but he forced himself to continue, even if it was a rambling mess and not the poetic confession of love he'd pictured more than once. "T-thatilikeyoualot!"
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Post by Kurogane Youou on Nov 27, 2011 8:53:09 GMT -4
Kurogane watched Fai for a long while, seeing different emotions pass through the blue eyes. He wasnt sure what the Blonde would say, if anything before he ran from the room.
Kurogane's heart sank a little when Fai mentioned that maybe they'd done it just because of the near death experience. He shifted to look away and try and pull his arm free, but Fai continued speaking saying that he...... what.... did he hear him right?
Kurogane looked at him, blinking a little unsure that he had heard the Ravenclaw student properly.
"What did you say?" said Kuro still looking at him.
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Post by Fai Flowright on Nov 27, 2011 9:14:37 GMT -4
Fai's heart tripped as Kurogane started to pull away, and he felt panic rising. Had he said the wrong thing? But, it seemed that Kurogane stopped; in fact the Hufflepuff looked at him, confused. Well, he wasn't surprised, he hadn't been particularly clear. He took a deep breath, trying to calm down.
Fai wasn't sure if Kurogane was going to like what he'd heard, but it was worth a shot...after all, they'd gotten this far. Blushing and trying not to rush through it or chicken out halfway through, he repeated himself "....I....like you....a lot." There. He'd done it....now he had to wait for the punch...or Kurogane walking off....or maybe the young man would actually laugh at him....
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Post by Kurogane Youou on Nov 27, 2011 10:21:36 GMT -4
Kurogane looked at him, he had heard what he thought Fai had said. He blushed a bright red and looked away.
"I... uh...." Kuro seemed to be struggling with the english language, what the heck was he suppoed to say. He felt the same, he really did. But they were both guys, guys werent supposed to feel like this about each other. Were they?
He looked flusteredly at Fai, mouth opening like he wanted to say something but gibberish came out again.
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Post by Fai Flowright on Nov 27, 2011 10:40:42 GMT -4
Fai didn't know exactly what reaction he'd honestly expected...but something more explosive than the Hufflepuff blushing and spouting nonsense. He'd broken Kurogane. Fai was hating how his stomach was knotting up uncomfortably as he tried to explain "......I...I know, it's stupid...I just....I look forward to spending time with you...I like how determined you are... and the look on your face when you get the hang of a tricky spell....I like that you'll fight for the underdog....I like how I can wind you up with silly names....I...I only do it to get you to chase me..." he confessed. He liked lots of things about Kurogane, but he didn;t want to sound like a complete psycho.
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Post by Kurogane Youou on Nov 27, 2011 18:24:03 GMT -4
Kurogane looked at him while he explained, Fai must be crazy. hoe could anyone like a grumpy teen with many issues.
Although Kuro had to admit he did also enjoy spending time with the annoying blonde, but Fai had helped him learn many spells and been there when he'd needed him to be. He felt a connection with him.
"Your crazy," he said finally blushing a little.
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Post by Fai Flowright on Nov 27, 2011 19:03:32 GMT -4
Fai blushed more ".....I know...." he let go of Kuroganes arm, embaressed and figuring that now he'd explained, Kurogane would leave. He started to pull back on his usual facade, ptrtrnding he wasn't phased. His tone became slightly hollow even though he was trying not to let Kurogane know how he was feeling "I'm sorry....I know it's crazy....I get that you won't feel the same....and I understand if you don't want to see me again...."
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Post by Kurogane Youou on Nov 27, 2011 19:16:30 GMT -4
Kurogane blinked when Fai let go, seeing him pull back. Why was he doing that.
"wont feel the same?" said Kuro, he grabbed the blonde and pulled him close kissing him again but briefly "Of course i feel the same," said Kurogane blushing still. "Why wouldnt i..." he said looking Fai in the eyes.
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Post by Fai Flowright on Nov 27, 2011 19:32:32 GMT -4
Fai looked flustered as Kurogane pulled him close and kissed him again. "I..um....many reasons" he murmured; he could come up with so many reasons why anyone, not only Kurogane wouldn't want to be with him. He was annoying. He lied. He never let anyone in. He was cursed. He killed his brother. But he didn't give any of these as reasons, still shocked that Kurogane had actually admitted that he was liked. The butterflies in his stomach were back.
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Post by Kurogane Youou on Nov 28, 2011 19:12:09 GMT -4
(Really failing with replies at the minute)
"Name one," said Kurogane folding his arms across his chest, waiting to hear Fai's answer. Was Fai actually looking for a reason for them not to get together?
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Post by Fai Flowright on Nov 28, 2011 20:10:28 GMT -4
Fai watched Kurogane's defiance cautiously. He knew of at least one that would be a deal breaker....it would put him off, and likely have Kurogane avoid him for the rest of their school lives; he wanted to tell the young man that he was mistaken, that he didn't know Fai at all....but he felt a horrible twist in his stomach at the thought of never having Kurogane in his life again. So he did what he did best...he lied by omission.
Not listing the most likely reason that Kurogane wouldn't want him, he shrugged a little and just replied "I'm always annoying you...."
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Post by Kurogane Youou on Nov 28, 2011 20:28:49 GMT -4
"Not always not when your helping me with a spell," said kuro refusing to take that as answer. "Your not getting rid of me that easily," said kuro still looking defiant. He wasnt going to give up that easily. Not after actually confessing he carex. Why say that and then give up?
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Post by Fai Flowright on Nov 29, 2011 9:24:41 GMT -4
fai blushed a little....he still had the urge to run, but he also had a selfish need to cling on and keep kurogane in his life. He wavered a little....but in the end, he wanted this. He wanted the chance to change and be the person he wanted to be....the person who kurogane seemed to like. "sorry....i just don't want you to wake up tomorrow and think 'what the hell have i done?'" still blushing he reached out to take kuroganes and in his, squeezing it gently.
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Post by Kurogane Youou on Nov 30, 2011 19:04:40 GMT -4
"I wont," said kuro leaning in to kiss fai on the forehead holding fai's hand in his gently. He wad blushing a little but didnt seem to want/look like he wanted to run away. He looked at fai, wondering ... this was the first time dating someone. He blushed looking away, what was he supposed to do.
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Post by Fai Flowright on Nov 30, 2011 19:20:04 GMT -4
Fai's cheeks were tinged pink as he enjoyed the show of affection from the usually gruff Hufflepuff. He just hoped he didn't let Kurogane down. "Good..." he noticed kuro looking at him and smiled....even more so at the blush. Kuro seemed a little lost....not that Fai was an expert either....his only romance so far had been in trashy novels the girls left lying around (he was bored and had run out of better things to read.) "I guess it's a little late to go to the dance..." he then seemed to remember the reason why they were still in the library anyway. "....it's probably what attracted the Dementors....we should probably find a teacher, they'll want to make sure all students are accounted for...."
He didn't really want to go....firstly, he was quite happy to be spending time with kuro-puff....and secondly, he really didn't want to leave only to find a dementor halfway down the hall. On the other hand, they would be a lot safer in a group, and with teachers present.
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